all about love

2010-06-19T21:17:00.003+08:00

I'm gone.
http://appleboycat.tumblr.com

2010-06-17T03:52:00.000+08:00

3.52AM zzz

2010-06-16T03:29:00.001+08:00

3.29 AM now i seriously need to adjust my sleeping time i slept at 5 plus ytd, and okay i will go sleep now.

2010-06-13T15:36:00.001+08:00

It's time.

2010-06-12T08:59:00.000+08:00

Omg i just got cheated by my stupid brother.

2010-06-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

I swear there's something wrong.

2010-06-09T12:27:00.000+08:00

I'm finally heading home. Hardcore gamblers are the heroes.

2010-06-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

Csl outing was better than expected. Really have to thank yongquan.

Hey irwttycygmawdoasisetwupmitsheh

2010-06-06T08:59:00.000+08:00

Yay im heading to hell now.

I realised, blogger is my twitter~

2010-06-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

Project 365, let's start. (though it is already june)

2010-06-05T19:09:00.000+08:00

Singapore is really small. Mutual friends everywhere.

2010-06-04T22:50:00.001+08:00

The day is ending!

2010-06-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

By the end of the day, who knows?

2010-06-02T11:56:00.001+08:00

Whee hope i can see

2010-06-02T01:18:00.002+08:00

Hey im leaving for america tmr. Seeya when I come back somewhere next week. Or maybe the 3rd week, cus I would most probably extend my stay there.

2010-05-31T21:10:00.002+08:00

Smile, please smile.
But now, I really do understand the reason for everything.
The sad thing is, I'm part of it.
Sorry.

2010-05-31T11:45:00.000+08:00

The pot calling the kettle black.
I have to admit, you're so gross.

2010-05-31T01:33:00.001+08:00

You have no choice but to come to terms with an unwanted separation from a person.
Sometimes, knowing when to leave is like knowing when to love...

The right moment.

2010-05-30T15:56:00.001+08:00

History

2010-05-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

Boomz

2010-05-29T12:31:00.001+08:00

Wheeeeeeee

2010-05-28T11:53:00.001+08:00

All of a sudden, I feel lost.
But whatever, it's the HOLIDAYS!

2010-05-27T12:56:00.002+08:00

Listening to The Era album always makes me want to post something here. Im in school, wondering what I should study for GP. Give me a break!

The day is ending, I thought it was high today? So what's wrong? ): I did stupid things again zzz.

Looking back at photos make me wonder, am I really moving on what? I really need to know cus the reaction was not what i expected. Perhaps, I was just trying to escape cus I felt lost. But, what's the reason to explain this situation now? I feel like a bitch! Haha.

Recently, there's a lot of decisions to make. For a 17 year old KID, some things arent really my main priority but I seem to have placed the greatet emphasis on them. This holidays, would be a great time to sort out some things.

Time for private :D

2010-05-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

Before I die for the night, I decided to start ranting.

Today in school, i realised i have been 'criticising' a lot of people ever since I stepped in JJ. This is not
me, I wonder what's wrong. But some people deserved the -.- look manxzxz. Actually I can only think of 2 now. Okay, tomorrow will be a brand new start. I don't care what you think about me, I don't care how you treat me, JC life will be over soon (:

The 3 of us, something is really wrong.

What I have been doing recently is such a waste of time. Seriously no point, but I just find myself doing lots of stupid stuff
recently. Holidays would be a good time to rest (: I hate and love distances at the same time, what a freak! I see myself dropping deeper every single day.

2010-05-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

Shivering for no reason

2010-05-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR (:
hope you enjoyed today and seeya on the 2nd week of june! (:

2010-05-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

Had fun at Yobo's house just now (: Happy time dancing singing acting complaining seducing laughing smiling sleeping! I'm like so comfortable at home now, while poor sylvia is at camp. But I bet she is having lots of fun since I did not receive any text from her!

Oh pls, how I wish I can be real sick tomorrow.
That barrier which I never wanted to build.

2010-05-19T22:49:00.002+08:00

I got to know the existence of this relative(saw her in the hospital few
weeks back) but she passed away yesterday....

Life's really fragile, life's really unpredictable.
A distant relative of mine, but I'm really feeling very upset that she left.
The only thing that comforts me is that, i got to see her, i got to know her.

2010-05-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

It is fading

2010-05-19T18:47:00.003+08:00

Have been floating recently, but today just aint the day for me to float. A number of reasons to list, but i shall not.

Once bitten, twice shy.
Someone, please pull me out from this pile of shit.
Impossible is the word,
but I just got myself so much trouble.

2010-05-16T12:06:00.002+08:00

You should reflect on yourself.

Because,
today I dreamt of you.
Nothing sweet or interesting,
i dreamt that you sent 8 msgs to me,
all 8 msgs were asking me to do work for you. -.-

Such a loser.

2010-05-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

I have developed a love-hate relationship for the weekends....

At times, when you feel really depressed/lost,
you really need someone familiar by your side.
Thanks YOBO! :D

A word can summarize everything I want to say.

R E S E T

2010-05-14T15:08:00.001+08:00

Under the same roof (:

2010-05-12T22:57:00.002+08:00

This is definitely not the first time I'm doing this.
But this time round, I see a clearer picture.
I see a clearer you & me.

In PW, we do alternatives and amalgamation.
But, why is it that in real life,
I can't find an alternative?
I can't find a solution to amalgamate?

2010-05-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

Substitute.

2010-05-11T13:28:00.001+08:00

It is really tough to live a life like this...
Can I return to myself?

2010-05-10T19:57:00.003+08:00

Had a fun time in LT5 today,
let's go there for jamming/ballet sessions again!
Hahhaa!

Today was interact exco voting day,
I remembered telling myself to try my best,
I remembered Roger saying 'Dont disappoint me'
BUT i actually gave up the chance today.

You raise me up is playing now,
too bad I can't sing now cus im on the bus ):

2010-05-09T18:00:00.001+08:00

I cant bring myself to smile

2010-05-09T13:34:00.002+08:00

I was told by my mom that...
I treasure my friends more than my family.
How true is that?!

2010-05-08T18:07:00.002+08:00

THIS/THAT/THOSE/WE/THEY/HE/HER/ME
just make my JC life suck even more.

Maybe I should just shut up.

2010-05-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

Whatever I'm doing now is nt appropriate,
all the missing of lessons + being late for school,
you shouldnt be doing this.

But i realise, tests/exams are so frequent that....
I no longer develop any feelings for them,
when I should not cus they determine my ptomotion status.

I'm so bored here,
someone come save me!!!

2010-05-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

GREAT JOB

keep it up!
Moving on has never been so easy.

2010-05-03T22:23:00.003+08:00

Really deprived of TRAVELLING,
really need to take a plane and just fly off to another country.
I need a break,
and a long one please.
All I can do now is to dream.

I just ended my long day,
I can't wait to sleep.
Going to Hort Park + Vivo City + Sentosa in a day aint a very good idea.

Busy week ahead..
I have got to head down to Stadium tmr night..
I may have to head back to JJC on Wed..
I have NAPFA test on Thurs (2.4KM zzz)..
I have MI test + Going back to NH after lessons + Heading to RP for JJC Talentime :D

I need a very very good nap tomorrow before I leave my house.
Somehow, I think I will be ill soon.

2010-05-03T00:45:00.002+08:00

Music has been a very good companion recently.
It never fails to distract me from whatever I'm doing.

I cannot imagine the scene happening back in my grandma house,
I cannot imagine how anxious my grandma/aunty felt,
I cannot imagine what would happen if he just left like that.

BUT THANK GOD,
he is safe, he will be safe.
He, will return and bring joy to our lives again :D
Take care, ah gong.

Today will be a busy day.
Please teach me how to look forward to whatever that's gna happen later.

2010-04-30T23:51:00.006+08:00

Sleep!
And nothing else, cus I have work to complete ):

On a lighter note,

New show added! 25 July 2010!
I'm given a 3rd chance, hope I will be able to get hold of good tickets!
5 May 2010... PLEASE!

23-25 July 2010 :D

And today, I went out with Grace Kang Yixuan.
Missed her so much ):
We watched

It was freaking funny :D
Today was really a nice break for both of us,
although I knew we were all damn tired!
Looking forward to see her/the others next Friday at NAN HUA!

Lastly, it's really time to meet up with Sylvia Chua Xinyi.
Missed her so much...

And, the fun all 4 of us once had...

2010-04-29T23:32:00.004+08:00

Thank God, it is Friday! I have endured another week of school, it is time to recharge :D
I desperately need to find my life back.
Everyday = boredom.

You have changed,
but I am glad there were good memories.
This time round, I'm no longer procrastinating.
Thanks for everything, friend.
Goodbye, I'll miss you.

2010-04-26T22:32:00.001+08:00

For her, yes i will.
Right?

2010-04-26T01:51:00.002+08:00

I foresee myself listening to the same song over and over again tmr.
Let's pray it turns out well :D

Buck up, you chose jc life so bear with it.
No point crying over spilt milk now,
cus you can't afford to waste time.

2010-04-25T16:05:00.001+08:00

Today marks the death of my 17-year-old pillow,
and my mom is laughing at my plight.
I wonder how I am going to sleep tonight.
R.I.P pillow, I'll miss you ):

2010-04-24T00:57:00.001+08:00

Every single time I try,
I fail every single time.
So why bother trying right?
Anyway, distance lost aint something easy to recover...

Physics sucks
damnit

2010-04-22T20:48:00.003+08:00

In the end, I still failed to get the tickets. What's gna happen? I really don't know but I know I really want to go for the concert )': Really sorry for Michelle as well, cus of me, she might not be able to go for the concert. I used 'might' because I still hope that..... we will get the chance to go for it. Let's pray.

Is it that hard to trust someone?
If that's the case,
why do good friends exist?
why do loving couples exist?
Okay, I think I get what you mean now.

2010-04-20T23:19:00.004+08:00

We found a way to motivate ourselves,
but how long can this last?
I highly doubt my perseverance. ):

10S24...

2010-04-19T20:35:00.002+08:00

You can ask me do PT or whatever, but pls don't ask me to run.

It is over, shit.
It is always like that...
Shouldn't I already get used to it?
Maybe I shouldn't,
cus the best solution is to
GIVE UP

2010-04-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

Carry on, you're doing great!

2010-04-18T14:17:00.002+08:00

I need it back,
wait, was it even with me before?

2010-04-18T00:35:00.001+08:00

I realised that I'm a VERY slow worker,
slower than what I have always thought I am.

2010-04-16T22:24:00.002+08:00

I didn't even know that I can even do that. Im amazed by myself.

When I finally realised the difference, it is already too late. You won't know how bad I feel, but things have already come this far, there's no turning back. You and I are people from 2 different worlds, so I'm still quite shocked how we managed to survive till now. Nice.

I miss nanhua. I miss 41 clementi ave 1.
I will endure the 2 years in JJ, I will endure everything around me, I will endure you.

2010-04-16T16:00:00.002+08:00

Totally feel like crying today, I finally understand our problem. Just that this time round, I am out of it.

2010-04-15T20:45:00.002+08:00

Bear with it! Although I know what I get will be what I will curse and swear at!

How I wish
the
person
is
not the
person.

2010-04-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

700th post NICE

So, I was all hyped up waiting anxiously for dear 9am to arrive. But i was:
1. Stupid enough to go refresh the page just before 9am
2. And I was unlucky enough to find dear tsd in the lecture theatre...

Apparently I tried 1 hour trying to enter the sistic website, and it took 1 hour for the tickets to be almost gone. And after 2 hours, all were sold out. So, i went home empty hande today, cursing ans swearing at sistic, tsd, and me myself and all the fans and people who buy it jist to sell it off at higher price. Zzz

I WILL GET THE SEATS, good seats!!!!!!

2010-04-12T10:39:00.001+08:00

They better ask me SOOON hahahahha or else I would just crash

2010-04-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

She cried and I laughed,
because I'm glad she understands.

You are there,
I'm here.
And I don't plan to go over there anymore,
cus here would be a better place.

2010-04-10T23:40:00.004+08:00

She is the first one that always comes to my mind.
She is the first one I always turn to when I need to talk.
She is the first one whom I really want to blog about.

She knows it when I'm happy/going high.
She knows it when I'm feeling down and needs company.
She knows it when I'm feeling damn irritated.
She knows it when I mean what I say.
She knows what she needs to say.
She knows how to make me smile.
She knows I really treasure her a lot. (Right?)

Sometimes, she can be quite childish.
Sometimes, she can get quite irritating(only when I'm feeling bad and everyone seems to irritate me).
Sometimes, she doesn't agree with what I say.
Sometimes, she just couldn't make time for me.
Sometimes, she make me feel that I don't mean alot to her.
Sometimes, she is unreachable when I need her badly.
Sometimes, she just make me feel so touched that I'm loss for words.

So what if JJ is very far from SA?
So what if our timetable always clashes with each other's.
So what if we spend very little time with each other?

We know we still have each other's company (:
Thanks for all the things you have done for me, even the slightest ones warm my heart.
Thanks for all the things you bought for me.
Thanks for all the letters you wrote for me.
Thanks for the time you spend talking/advising/comforting/encouraging me.
Thanks for being there for me.
Thanks for being my friend (:

2010-04-09T01:44:00.002+08:00

CSL? hmm...

2010-04-07T22:35:00.002+08:00

Missed sf preliminary round today... I'm sad ): Haha.

JJ soccer match with SA today was...... funny hahaha.
And obv, guess who won?

2010-04-05T23:46:00.001+08:00

Move on baby

2010-04-05T21:49:00.001+08:00

Rejected, immediately.

2010-04-04T21:21:00.003+08:00

The 2D1N camp at pulau ubin turned out better than expected! Though it rained for both days, I think it was a blessing in disguise like seriously! Cus I don't really want to go for the amazing race! Haha. Really glad I had my alpha's groupmates/facilators! For the first time, I feel that sharing sessions are really useful :D Though Roger craps a lot, but when it comes to such sharing sessions, I think I did learn things from him (:

I was wondering wondering wondering thinking thinking thinking smiling smiling smiling looking looking looking looking~~~Aye i think too much already la HAHAHA

2010-04-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

Camp tmr )': Please pray that it won't rain tmr~~

Had tuition just now. My first tuition in 4 years woah! Anw, i have no comments about the tutor. I want to change tutor but .... i feel so mean ):

Have fun (:

2010-04-01T21:36:00.002+08:00

Communication is important among friends, but why is it that I can never have a long and proper conversation with you? All of a sudden, you seem very far. So much to the extent that I can use the word 'inferior'. Yes, such a letdown right? )':

I just spent 5 hours sleeping when I could have tried to complete some of my work or even pack my room so as to not scare my tutor tmr.. Long weekend, what a joke! I have to go pulau ubin to have my CSL adventure camp. Initially, I was looking quite forward to it but... I would be able to get along with my Alpha mates right?

Let's pray that I can take a bath there.
Let's pray that there would be electricity over there.
Let's pray that I can have a great time there.
Let's pray that sistic doesn't release the sale of the tickets when I'm there.
Let's pray that............... this is not the end.

2010-03-31T22:53:00.003+08:00

Hate it when people come and go as they wish.
Especially when you don't know why.

2010-03-31T18:18:00.001+08:00

Whats wrong?

2010-03-30T22:25:00.002+08:00

Hope that tmr, i will get all the answers I want. Will I? Will we?

2010-03-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

Exhausted.
I will be there for you when u need me (:

2010-03-29T09:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE

2010-03-29T09:20:00.001+08:00

Wheee dong is near me!!! Let's float together!

Yesterday was a nice day, even though I spent my entire day doing the ppt slides...

2010-03-28T01:33:00.002+08:00

Flag day was today, one of the worst flag day I have ever done. I actually walked from chinatown mrt to cityhall mrt. And my tin weren't even half completed, I even had to ask Sheena for help! )':
After that went for lunch with a weird combination of people!

Headed home and bathed and immediately went all the way back to Marina Square. Bought Grace's presents from Kiddy Palace. Yes, I went to Kiddy Palace to get presents for a 17-year old kid! (: So we ate a Sakae Sushi(no choice cus everywhere was packed -.-) and went to check out the merlion as usual... The breadtalk cake was superb! It wasn't an interesting/wonderful birthday celebration, but it was the quality time spent with friends that matters ;D

I'm tired, I have to sleep.
It is already Sunday, sian.

2010-03-27T00:01:00.001+08:00

That just made me confirm a fact - you are crazily in love with her!

I realised I'm easily contented and as easily disappointed as well..

2010-03-25T21:45:00.001+08:00

I really hope I will receive it after everything is completed.
But I know, i know and I won't want to lie to myself anymore.
That will be a wish that will never come true ):

BUT still ALL THE BEST

2010-03-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

Seems like you're enjoying lifeeeee
All the best :D

2010-03-23T00:56:00.002+08:00

Just got a piece of shocking news. Jay is gna have a concert in sg like july?! This is super distracting esp when im trying to study for my chem? The same feeling I had about more than 2 years ago(woah)! The most ex tix is like 228?! And who to go with :'(

okay back to redoxxxxxxxxzzz

2010-03-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

Bet it is a mass thing....

"Thought you promise me you will study hard for A levels?"

2010-03-21T18:27:00.001+08:00

Realise how stupid i was in the past :'(

2010-03-21T14:08:00.002+08:00

Don't know what was I thinking this morning...
As usual, i applied toothpaste onto my toothbrush, thinking that the toothpaste looks weird today, but still I put the toothbrush into my mouth and started brushing... It was only then that I realised I applied facial cream instead of toothpaste!

2010-03-21T02:06:00.001+08:00

Seems like I will not make it to school this monday...

2010-03-19T21:10:00.001+08:00

As expected, it is friday and.... I still have loads of work undone )':

2010-03-19T16:51:00.005+08:00

2010-03-18T22:32:00.004+08:00

Initially, it was so tough to understand and I had a lot of queries about every single thing.

Then, everything seemed to be going on smoothly. I thought, this time was real.

In the end, here I am, typing this, constanly reminding myself to move on...
Will THIS be a great motivation for me to study?

2010-03-17T13:41:00.002+08:00

To whom this may concern,

I'm happy for you, though I have many worries in my head. But I won't talk to you about those things, cus perhaps this is the best solution now. All the best :D

I'll pray for you...

2010-03-17T01:29:00.001+08:00

If you are reading this, be glad i shared with u that precious place! Haha.

I was wrong, totally wrong, cus I got that in return...
Maybe, I won't turn up.

2010-03-16T10:46:00.002+08:00

BYE SEEYA IM SERIOUS THIS TIME CUS IM MOVING ON YOU WONT FIND ME AGAIN MAYBE YOU WONT EVEN REALISE BUT OH WELL U THINK I CARE?!??!?!?!?

2010-03-15T18:20:00.000+08:00

You know you shouldnt be like that.

2010-03-13T14:22:00.002+08:00

I'm already trying my very best, just give me more time.

2010-03-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

Sec 3 sec 4 sports meet was boomz,
what about tmr's?

2010-03-09T22:17:00.002+08:00

CSL (:

Someone, tell me to stop. Please?
I dont wait so long to get those kind of....

2010-03-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

Stop laughing stop vibrating stop turning

2010-03-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

"We wasted our 1 term laughing away!" - Cheryl

The one week holiday would be so useful, for me to catch up with my work and have sufficient rest. Hope history dont repeat itself and i wont find myself regretting on sunday, realising I did nothing!

I was on the phone with Sylvia today and my friends actually thought I was talking to someone else. Haha do I look very blessed/loved when I was on the phone? But they got me thinking :'(

2010-03-08T08:13:00.000+08:00

Just realised it is march and jay's album is not out yet. How nice

2010-03-07T00:29:00.002+08:00

No longer feel that way anymore cus other people are in the picture now. The fact that im here and you are there, everything has been fixed. I dont why i had so much confidence in the past, but now im losing all of it. SERIOUSLY, i have been thinking... why arent you that kind of people?!?!?!? If you are then :D

2010-03-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

Had class bbq today (: